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Sailor Uranus <3
all that i kept inside, ruin me instead.
1. my super awesome best friend… i shall not say what happened but yea.. pierced my heart, made me cry. i love you.
2. anorexia. me. merci.
3. F-L-I-N-G. AWESOME MERCI.
4. family.
i wished i’m in coma right now so that i won’t think of anything except of God. i just need Him right now.
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The tears never run dry. Keeps on rolling down to my cheeks. My lips never stop chanting “ILoveYou,INeedYou,IMissYou”. My mind never stop thinking of you. I guess that’s it; 4 years of friendship down the drain. I’m just so fucking stupid; too fucking stupid, too fucking ignorant to cherish friendships and keep losing them. FUCK YOU SYARIZA! KILL YOURSELF TONIGHT. NOBODY CARES.
Md Ridhwan (Wan Farel)
an awesome dude i got to know. unfortunately, 4 years of getting to know you ends today. i only get to meet you thrice but its okay. i’m cool. looking at my schedule, i didn’t know how to make time for you. sorry. too occupied with practicals and classes.
all said and done. i’m the one who packed up and left. blaming myself for everything of course. sigh. i fucking love him alot. not just as friends but fucking more than that. he just doesn’t belief that i do love him. its so hard to convince him.
i don’t know whether i’ve changed. definitely, i still need you.
whats up with SYARIZA
before i begin writing this post, i would like to apologize to everyone surrounding me for not being myself. i am currently facing constraints feat. bullshits and it pisses me off because i am not able to express myself truly. my mind went haywire and i could not control myself anymore. should i say i was on depress mode? anyhow, i am really sorry. hope you guys will understand me. i am currently trying to build myself back, trying to be who i really am.
with regards with my plans on cutting my hair short, i could bear with Singapore’s climate. it can be either scorching hot or freezing cold. ouh, blame on climatic change and selfish people. sidetracking, i know. other than the weather, my character aka myself suit short hair very well. i do not hate long hair/mane but the maintenance for long hair is super expensive and its a hassle for me. i rather have short hair.
with regards with me wanting to run so badly is because running helps me “escape” from my problems. it makes me feel elated. other than that, it keeps me fit and toned. currently, i feel like i am fat don’t you think so too? i am picking up sports once again.
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somehow, i felt better. still thinking of things through though. i don’t want all this to take a toll on my health. always remember “each one of us are gems. its up to us to choose to polish the gem or leave it dull.
syariza
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I MISS YOU!!
syariza
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at first i thought he understands me but in the end he screwed me up. i left him. i’ve moved on but i guess its a huge impact for me to withstand. i’m still lingering around without any sense of direction.
syariza
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I don’t really know what I want right now. Its unfair for myself because I don’t have any perspectives set. Its like you have a life but you don’t have any goals to achieve. Its better off being dead.
syariza
